Permission to Stand Up for Myself
I hardly slept last night.
Before going to sleep, I did everything “right” to insure that I would sleep soundly:
- I closed all screens two hours before winding down.
- I played a game of Backgammon with my sweetie, which we have done every night for many years.
- I took my herbal sleeping remedy.
- I had a light snack with protein, carb, and fat. (Perfect for my adrenal glands.)
- I took a warm bath with epsom salt and lavender.
- I read a bit in my novel while two of my three cats snuggled with me.
- I turned on the air conditioning, making the bedroom nice and cool.
- I closed the curtains so the room was pitch black.
- I covered up my digital clock so I wouldn’t fixate on the time.
- I turned on my white noise machine.
- I rubbed some AdrenaCalme on my wrists.
I do each of these things every night, and usually they send me into a deep slumber for many hours.
But not last night. I could feel my mind swirling and my heart racing and my body tensing and my adrenals on high alert.
At some point in the early hours of the morning I realized something: I had done everything I could to make sure the