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I recently invited members of the Soul Speak community to share their Soul Stories – that moment in your life when you realized there was much more to you than just a human body, when you remembered that you had a soul, and when you felt on a deep level your connection to everything in the universe. It’s that moment when you felt completely loved and filled with light.

Throughout 2014, I’ll be sharing some of the amazing stories that I received. It’s my hope that they open your heart to what’s possible and help you feel how connected we all are to each other and also to the universe. Enjoy! 🙂

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naomiI think that hindsight is one of our greatest gifts. I discovered this on the year-long journey I faced while trying to conceive a child, which led to a profound spiritual awakening and the gift of patience.

As a healthy woman, I was certain that I would fall pregnant straight away. I knew my body really well and felt pretty good, so I didn’t consider that there could be any problems. After a few months of trying however, I began to get frustrated (and impatient), so I made an appointment to see a popular holistic doctor – the only problem being that he had a 3 month waiting list!

Here came my first challenge: Waiting. I couldn’t stand it. I recognized that there was no use in fighting things that were beyond my control, but still I struggled through it, complained about it, and wished that the situation were different. Not helpful at all, I know.

Three months went by and I still wasn’t pregnant, so off to the doctor I went. After meeting with the doctor and having some routine blood tests, I discovered that I wasn’t as healthy as I thought. I had major deficiencies in iron, vitamin B, magnesium, vitamin D, zinc, and had cholesterol levels so LOW that it was effecting my hormones and my body’s ability to produce essential minerals. This was heavy. Then on top of all of this I discovered that I also had a digestive parasite (which was the cause of my low iron).

I was devastated. Not only was I not able to have a child on my time but now I had to deal with all this other crap first! I hated my situation so much that I became bitter, sarcastic, and started to expect the worst rather than being hopeful and optimistic like my usual self.

Even though I was grateful that the news was not all bad, I still played the victim every day. Thankfully I wasn’t dealing with a diagnosis of a chronic or terminal illness or some sort of hereditary or genetic disorder beyond my control. All of my ailments could be corrected and repaired. Although I knew this, my reaction was as if I had received a tragic diagnosis.

Straight away I was hit hard with my next challenge: Money. And not just about actually finding the finances to buy all the supplements/food/products I needed to restore my health but also the underlying issue of not believing that I was worthy of having this money spent on me.

And I must admit that worthlessness related to spending money on myself had been an ongoing issue for me. It was finally being presented to me in a way that I could not ignore. So I desperately wanted to have good health (in general but also for the greater purpose of having a child), but I constantly felt guilty about the money I was “wasting” on getting there.

This was a long and painful lesson. Getting rid of the parasite involved a three-month herbal cleanse that had many unpleasant symptoms. Some days I was so nauseated and unwell that I was not able to do anything at all. I started to feel sorry for myself and think that my situation would never improve.

As I was in the middle of this journey, it was difficult for me to see that the end was in sight. This is where, in hindsight I can see that it was all worth it and that it didn’t drag on for as long as I thought it did. This is where an outsider’s perspective really helped. For me it was my doctor – who also does cranio-sacral healing and is an intuitive counselor.

We worked through my issues around worthlessness, and he explained how it is important to take a spiritual and emotional approach to physical symptoms in order to heal them fully and prevent their return. At that point I realized that I had to address the underlying core issues, not just the physical ones.

My doctor asked me a question that would change everything: “What state of health and wellbeing do you want to be in when you have a child?”

This was not something that I had given serious thought to before. My answer was that I wanted to be grounded, strong, confident, reliable, and HEALTHY! There was not a single inch of me that wanted to feel worthless or sick as I made the journey into motherhood.

I had reached my low point and now I was rapidly bouncing back as I knew exactly what I needed to do.

In order to experience the extent of my worthlessness I had to face the reality that I, in fact, might not be able to conceive a child AND find peace with the necessary financial exchange to support my wellbeing.

I had to travel deep within and look my fears in the eye.

I retreated from the world while I went on my healing journey. I allowed myself to experience and accept the grief, frustration, self-blame, and pain associated with the idea of not being able to have a child of my own. I sat with it and I found my true self.

Next, I allowed the discomfort associated with accepting money to arise. I spoke to myself as if I were talking to a dear friend. I showed her that not only did she deserve to have money spent on her but that she needed it for her health and wellbeing. I reassured her that it was okay to feel nervous sometimes, but that she was strong enough to accept money and let this issue go.

It took me a few weeks, but I emerged feeling refreshed and connected. I had found peace, which allowed me to transcend the “problem” of not being able to get pregnant and just enjoy being exactly where I was in that moment – something that I had not allowed myself to do for many months. This really took the pressure off! Instead of seeing not getting pregnant as a “problem,” I saw it for the gift that it was.

I was living consciously, one day at a time, and had quit taking pregnancy tests every month. I accepted that if it was going to happen that it would just happen.

naomi cardIt just so happened that I was doing an oracle reading for my blog when I decided to pull out a card for myself (from Doreen Virtue’s Goddess Guidance Oracle Cards)!

It was at that moment that I knew my wish had come true. I discovered that I was five weeks pregnant!

Going through this transformation helped me realize that we always attract situations that are perfect for us to learn our greatest life lessons.

 

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naomi pregnantNaomi Goodlet is a Wellness Coach, Spiritual Mentor and Mindfulness Crusader. She advocates for empowerment, wellbeing and freedom through connection with true values and with the present moment. Click here to receive her FREE E-Book,”Be Here Now” and learn how to stand back from your mind, make peace with your difficult feelings, and experience the joy of living in the present moment!

Thank you so much, Naomi, for sharing your story and also your heart with us. 

Hugs,

jodi

 

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