The Ride of Life

Have you ever reached a point in your life where you knew you needed to make a decision – do something – follow through fully and completely? Were you able to do it?

I am currently at that point; I have reached an impasse. The time has come where I need to make a decision: do I continue to follow my intuition and go where my soul leads me or do I close off this portal and go back to allowing my ego to run the show? It’s time to decide once and for all – it’s time to put both feet in. No more dabbling. No more wavering. It’s becoming too exhausting to balance on this fence. I am tired of the constant kicking and screaming that is going on inside my mind.

I am writing a book. It’s a book about my experience with something magical – something mind altering – something extraordinary. It’s about my reawakening as a result of this experience – my reemergence into this world. It’s about the process – the lessons – the message – the rebirth.

A few months ago, I was in the groove. Things were flowing. Words poured out of me. I wrote 100 pages and barely had time to come up for air. And then it stopped. The spout didn’t dry up – I purposefully turned it to “off.” I closed off the possibility of any more words.

Why? Because I am scared. This book is my heart, and writing it requires me to be fully present and fully in it – a place that is sometimes hard to go to. It requires me admitting to the world that I have something to say. It opens me up to recognizing that the world could have something to say back. Writing this book means that I am fully committing to having both feet in this new world – this world of the soul – a world that I never imagined that I would be a part of.

I have experienced an awakening, and some days all I want to do is crawl back into my past and live in that darkness forever. However, the light that I am now surrounded by is too bright to ignore. And even though I feel fragile and raw and unsure about any of this – something inside of me knows that I need to keep writing. I need to finish my book. I need to put it into the world. I need to complete this process for me – and also for you.

I need to put my feelings of fear aside, at least for awhile, and tap into my higher self. I need to continue to let my soul call the shots – it hasn’t led me astray yet, and I know that it never will. I need to stop writing about writing a book and actually write a book.

I have something to say. We all do.

And haven’t we allowed our fears to be in control for long enough? Isn’t it time for each of us to embrace our deeper knowing – and write about it, create with it, and live it? We must do this. It’s why we are here.


The Ride of Life — 9 Comments

  1. I’m proud of you! I’m glad to hear that you are going for it! I’m looking forward to that book! 😀 Your voice in this world is important and there are people out there that needs to hear your story! Congrats Jodi!

  2. Dear Jodi
    What a pleasure to find you! I too am grateful to Katie Tallo for guiding me to your blog.
    I have just read The Ride of Life with tears and goosebumps. Yes, yes, yes. I know that feeling so well -“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us” wrote Marianne Williamson and how true is that? I have a book that one day I’m writing and the next I’m too scared to do so. I too have a story (as we ALL do) that I want to share with the world and have daily doubts about it’s worthiness…..
    Write your truth Jodi, continue to write from your heart and your soul will sing!
    And this just landed in my inbox………….”I trust so much in the power of the heart and the soul; I know that the answer to what we need to do next is in our own hearts. All we have to do is listen, then take that one step further and trust what we hear. We will be taught what we need to learn.” — Melody Beattie
    Love and light

    • Dear Rebecca,
      I LOVE both quotes that you listed – perfect timing to hear each of them, too. You’re absolutely right that it is the light that I am most afraid of – that so many of us are most afraid of. I would love to support each other during this process – let’s give birth to our books – they are inside each of us waiting to be born. And it’s time we introduce them to the world. I can’t wait to read yours! ♥ ♥
      Jodi – Soul Speak recently posted..The Ride of LifeMy Profile

  3. Congrats on your undertaking! It takes courage and dedication to take the soul path… Thanks for talking about it.

    I’m writing a book too, well I finish it because like you I put it away for some time, and I’ve found amazing support at Write Non-Fiction in November Blog, maybe you’d like to finish your book this month too with this challenge :

    • Thank you so much, Marie-Eve, for your kind words! Thank you also for sharing this website with me. I’m so glad you have found support there – I’m going right now to check it out. I can’t wait to read your book when it comes out! :)

      • Thanks! I’m really looking forward for yours too!

        It’s a special topic you chose. I used to be really away from spirituality too and not interested in soul matters, but then now it’s the most important thing for me to help people reconnect with it and be more conscious.

        Have good sucess with your projects!
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  4. My Dear Jodi,
    You know what you must do. You’re like a bird migrating south, answering a call from deep within.
    I put off writing my second novel for some time. Even though I knew I was to write it I put it off. Now I’m writing. I’m enjoying it. It’s where I belong.
    Go to your writing and be present with it. The writing will write as you make yourself available to the process…this I know.
    Thank you for writing in such a raw and honest way Jodi. It’s writers like you who inspire writers like me.
    Hugs and Blessings,
    leah recently posted..Who the Hell is Calling?My Profile

    • Hi Leah,
      I can’t wait to read it, and I’m so proud of you for writing it! You have created so much space in your life to do this, which is so inspiring to me.
      You are such a gift to all of us, Leah. And I am so blessed that you are a part of my life. Truly. ♥